I arrived at the venue. It is looking like a setting. As I am nearing it I realised that it a wonderful setting with a stellar effect. Decorative pillars in white, Red decorative lamps, White mandap with panditji and RK in blue dress . As I looked at RK, my spirits are rising and I am feeling that I am moving into to a very new phase and a beautiful phase which is going to be with Rishab the person I love the most. Will every girl undergo this phase to leave parents, near and dear putting an end to the secure happy life? I am able to overcome the grief of moving out my family mother, Didu and Malik. This saath vachan will put me into new phase of life. I am getting tormented between love for family and Rishab.
Rishab is in the spot waiting for me to complete adura Shadi . We exchanged garlands and tied the knots. RK asks the pandit to move forward to last thee vachans as there is no need to repeat. I moved forward to start taking remaining pheras and noticed RK holding me back. RK opened the liquor jar drank some and emptied the rest in fire. I am confused. He asked the pundit to leave.
I am confused. RK has thrown off the garland and pulled out my churni.
RK ‘You are not my wife and your pheras will be incomplete for your life’
I am dumb stuck. I am not able to grasp and my dreams are going upside down.
RK ‘ I am ending the game. The drama from Ganpati, Karwa Chauth, Romance ..to Action ( Killing of Ballu) is over’
Tears are rolling out of my eyes. I am not able to believe. I begged RK to call this a lie.
RK ‘This is truth and we are not Pati aur Patni. I am free from this relation and settled my grudge for the slaps”.
I am out of my senses. I am not able to take this. Why I am I feeling so vulnerable? As I look into RK eyes I am missing his mesmarising glance. I am seeing vengeance and a Sadistic satisfaction. Are all the wonderful feelings, the feeling of completeness, the ecstasy of oneness, the stillness, time skipping its beat , joy of togetherness false? I collapsed breaking my green bangles. What happened to all the wonderful feelings? Is that a dream or hallucination? Will an overwhelming love end, leaving me a victim?
RK dragged me to my Chawl told everybody over there about the breakup and the worthlessness of a middleclass girl. I am jade walking and not able to register anything. Is he talking about middleclass girl or about a girl? A girl is a girl irrespective of being middleclass, rich or poor. How can he do that? I saw mother coming down and she is realising the horror of my wedding, a story of vengeance, hate and deceit.
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